Today’s chapter in The Yamas & Niyamas was about self-study. The author said we are all an awesome gift wrapped inside many boxes, like a Christmas joke (my mother-in-law likes to double wrap things). Deep down inside we have “God” inside of us and the wrapping and outside boxes are the way we view others and the world around us because they are our history, learned behaviors. She said what we don’t like in other people is really something we don’t like in ourselves.
I am reading the book fast so I will have read it before my class starts in 13 days. I don’t have time to do the explorations one week at a time like the book wants. It is more like a crash course for me. With today’s chapter we are supposed to look at things that make us react (good or bad) and try to figure out which piece of our wrapping made us feel that way. Then we can remove our ego or “I-ness” from things.
I was driving home today from the grocery store and a lady two cars in front of me hit her breaks and u-turned because she was going in the wrong direction or forgot something, I guess. My initial reaction was, Ahhhh!!!! Stupid bitch, made my groceries fly to the floor! However, when I stepped back and really looked at the situation, I wasn’t mad at her at all. Why would it effect me in the least that she had to turn around? I was angry because I was driving to fast and too close to the car in front of me. The lady hitting her breaks made me slam on mine. That is not her fault. It is mine. And then the rage I had towards her melted away and I remembered to drive a little safer.
I think this way of thinking is going to slowly change my world.